lately...i'm coming up against same hard things. but at the same time, God is doing soem pretty awesome stuff in my midst. next year, i hope to be in nashville at the YWAM base there. while all my friends are going to college, i know that i'll be restless until i do this. because i really fell like God is calling me there. i can't wait to go! to get away from all this and just listen to Him. and then go out and see Him do things through me! but i feel like this should be happening here at home too. in fact...i know it should be. there is so much crap...i'm sure you know. but He is everywhere, He is enough, He is waiting for us to cry out, He is already on the move...just look around! i went through the hardest time in my life this past year...when someone who meant so much too so many died. i've never in all my life been that mad at GOd. do then what was i supposed to do? cause who can i talk too if i'm too mad to talk to my best friend, ya know? but HE has a way of always being faithful...always. He was enough to get me through then. He'll be enough to fulfill the dreams He's placed in my heart now.